Librarian

I’ve been pretending I don’t see how everyone else is changing, but I can’t ignore the growing fear that I’m the only one still stuck in the old ways

Ive been holding it all in, but I cant keep pretending I dont feel the weight of it anymore

I’ve been nodding along in every meeting but I can’t ignore the way my chest tightens every time my name isn’t called

I’ve been faking interest in this project, but I can’t fake it anymore I’m just here for the free snacks

I kept telling myself I’d figure it out eventually, but now I’m here staring at a spreadsheet I don’t even remember making haha lol

something happened and i need to process it

i made a decision and idk if it was right

theres this situation i havent told anyone about

i’ve been avoiding my old friends for days, and i think it’s time i stopped pretending i’m okay

i dont know who else to tell this to

can i be honest about something weird

something happened and i need to process it

something is bothering me and i cant figure out what

I've been faking confidence in every meeting, but the longer this goes on the more I wonder if anyone actually believes me

i made a decision and idk if it was right

i need to talk through something before i make a decision

i need to talk through something before i make a decision

I’ve been avoiding the mirror every morning, but I can’t ignore the weight of this silence anymore

i need to talk through something before i make a decision

i’ve been holding onto this secret for too long and it’s starting to weigh me down i never meant to hurt you but i couldn’t keep the truth buried any ...